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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 01:00

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She married twice! .

What did i know ?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

My life is so biszare .

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I was very sick at this time too.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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One cannot live in the past .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I broke up with my boyfriend because he wasn’t transparent about his past, it hurts me and he doesn’t care. I told him in the beginning of our relationship that it was a deal breaker for me what do I do?

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He knew the spot.

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I know ,a lot about trauma.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

How do you take your erotic photos and how do you choose the poses?

Ive learnt so much.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Comes on , in middle age.

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I said to her

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

This is how, and why children get BPD.

All the time i was locked up.

How do flat earthers explain the Earth being stationary? Is this concept considered impossible?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

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My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

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Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

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Why did i forgive my father ?

Why can't my adopted sister accept she is not part of my family because she isn't related? Why can't she stop calling my parents mum and dad?

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

It was going to be , some day.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

She found it foreign!.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I waited trembling.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I never cut or harmed myself..

I could never make a relationship work though!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

My family never makes their pension either.

I was scared of men, in general

She was in good health!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

(And it was in our own minds.)

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

When she asked me how she looked .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Would this be the day?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

We all went to grammer schools

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was 9 years of age.

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As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

So, i spoilt her more .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Im still living with it.

I have no regrets .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

He resisted the act ,that day.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

This is soul school!.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Put me off passion for life!!

But ive been too sick for many years..

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

She wouldn,t have been !

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

But, we were locked up after school.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

The only rule us 5 kids had .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Who then, do I blame.?

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I think the readers, may guess!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Especially a lifetime of it.

As i do to all so called friends.?

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

And i lived it daily.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But it wasn’t much.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I will be 64.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I was seconnd youngest,

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

She loved him until the end.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I couldn’t, believe it.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

We were not on the streets..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Was to survive, this bastard.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I write beautiful poetry .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I don,t even have a pension.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

So whats the point in blame.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.